I have a problem: I sell myself short all the time. I am definitely my harshest critic and no matter what I do I never think it’s enough. I work so hard and am proud of my accomplishments but at the same time I always feel like I could/should do a little more. I never think I am fast/strong/smart/determined/good enough.

I’ve known that this has been a problem for a while now but the fact that I got yelled at by a stranger made me realize how big of a problem this is. On Sunday morning before the race my gym (which is downtown and near the start line) opened up early. This was the most amazing thing ever—they had food and coffee out and REAL CLEAN BATHROOMS to use! I wish every race could be like that. Anyway, there was a group of about 7 of us getting ready to run. There were a few guys there (one who had run all 22 Pittsburgh Marathons!) and they were discussing their goals (2:45 and 3:00 numbers were being thrown around!) and one of the guys asked me what my goals were. I said “Oh, I’m just running the half.” He got all serious and said “NEVER say just the half. A half marathon is a huge deal!”

That really made me think. All week leading up to the race when people would ask if I was running the marathon I would respond, “no, just the half” and sort of get embarrassed and feel bad like I should be doing more.  But really this is not the way to think! There is always more you can do—there is the full marathon but then there are ultramarathons! I am doing an olympic triathlon but then there are half ironmans and ironmans which are much longer. Just because I am not doing the longest event doesn’t diminish what I am achieving. Sure there is always more you can do, but there is also a lot less—or nothing— which unfortunately is the option that most people choose.

So from now on I am going to start being prouder of myself and all that I am accomplishing. After the race when people asked if I ran the marathon I said “I ran the half” and taking out the word “just” really made all the difference! Really, I was the only one judging myself and everyone else was impressed that I ran 13 miles.

I had a really nice rest day yesterday and an easy workout day today but now it’s time to hit the ground running (literally—I have a 5ish mile run at 5am tomorrow!) A few hard weeks of training, a taper, and then RACE DAY!!!!!! This is it….it’s real. And I couldn’t be more excited 🙂

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